Monday, February 23, 2009

In A Rut

I am in a rut. I feel like everyday is the same and all the days are just running into one another. It feels like I am in the movie "Groundhog Day". I'll never forget going to see this movie with my friend Bridgett at the theater and she kept falling asleep. Everytime she would wake up, the same thing would be on the screen! I am having a hard time finding my joy. I love my husband and kids, but this responsibility bullshit is really taking a toll on me. My house is a complete and total wreck and I cannot find the motivation to get it in order. Everyday I can manage to do laundry and dishes, but we have piles of shit everywhere and I just can't make myself do anything about it because when I do, it seems to just turn into more piles. I am stressed about finances, but choosing to bury my head in the sand. I am sick and tired of being the only one in this house who knows anything about anything. I love Darrell with all my heart, but I feel like we are in a relationship rut too, and I don't know what to do about it. He thinks if he tells me how much he loves me and how committed he is to me, then that is good for our relationship. Well, it is, but that is what I already know...show me something different.

Does anyone have any advice for me? I'm tired of my life, and I don't like the way that sounds. Right now I just feel like running away, temporarily. I just need a break.

Another part of my problem is my mother's mother. I would call her my grandmother, but that is somewhat a term of endearment and I have decided I hate that bitch. Don't judge me. It's a fact. She is ruining my parents' lives and for some odd reason my mother is letting her. She can't take care of herself (partly just because she won't) and she completely manipulates my mother. She's too poor to afford a nursing home, but brings in just enough not to qualify for medicaid. Had I been smart enough to realize a couple of years ago that she would have qualified for medicaid, I would have suggested it then. I didn't understand the whole medicare/medicaid setup. I try giving my mother advice, but she doesn't listen. I have told her how I feel about her mother. I don't understand why she just can't die already. This same shit has been going on for over 5 years now. Her mother is C.R.A.Z.Y. I worry daily about my mom and the effect all of this is having on her. I also selfishly worry about me and the fact that I want my mom and I can't have her. I wish I could just have some peace about all of this so that I can get past it. I have tried, but it just doesn't seem to to be working. There is only one solution, and I am not in charge of that.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Pay It Forward

I saw this on my friend Melanie's blog and thought it was such a cute idea. I look forward to sending out something to those who read mine...so go comment after reading!

The Rules
1. Be one of the first THREE bloggers to leave a comment on this post, which then entitles you to a handmade item from me - something crafty or yummy, who knows?!

2. Winners must post this challenge on their blog, meaning that they will Pay It Forward, creating a handmade gift -anything!- for the first THREE bloggers who leave a comment on their post about this giveaway!

3. The gift that you send to your friends can be from any price range and you have 365 days to make/ship your item. This means you should be willing to maintain your blog at least until you receive your gift and have shipped your gifts. And, remember: It’s the Spirit and the Thought That Count!

4. When you receive your gift, please feel free to blog about it, sharing appropriate pictures and comments!

If you are not one of the Top Three Commenters on this post, you can still play along.Go ahead and start your own Pay It Forward chain, and encourage your blogging friends to do the same! SO, REMEMBER...Pay it forward! P.S. If you are one of the first three and don't have a blog to post you can take the next three friends that call you just to chat and Pay It Forward to them! Then challenge them to do the same. Let's help make this a wonderful world to live in and show our friends how much we care for them

Friday, February 6, 2009

P.U.

Dear Rutherford County Wildlife Management,
We have a problem. A very serious problem. It seems that the Smyrna/Murfreesboro area has become quite the refuge for skunks. Just this morning I passed 3 on the side of the road which had met their demise. However, their immense odor makes me want to meet my demise. There is one on my beaten path that has been there all week and I cannot even begin to tell you how bad that stinker smells. It has been cold. I don't like to be cold. Therefore when I am in my vehicle I keep it toasty warm. Toasty warm + Skunky smell = Freaking disgusting. Have I mentioned that it has been cold and I don't like to be cold? Well, Skunky smell + Window down (brrrr) = Still freaking disgusting + Pisses me off. I am sure you are all very busy managing wildlife and such during the day, but please get your asses out at night and take care of these nocturnal nightmares. Or at least get your asses out during the day and pick up the frigging skunk carcasses. I will be sure to let you know if I have any other serious and time sensitive requests.

kthxbai!
Julie

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Praying for Harper

I found this story on Sasha's blog and I have been following it for the last few weeks. It is an amazing story and I hope you all will take the time to check it out. It was so strange to read all of this and think that it could have happened to me, or you, or to anyone. Because that is just one of those things that you don't (and don't want to) think about.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

My New Favorites

There are 2 things that I am loving right now. One, is the Principal's Office on TruTv. If you have not seen this, you have to check it out. I for the life of me do not know how I survived my stint as a high school Spanish teacher. I just do not have the patience for that kind of nonsense. And it seems to be really easy to get suspended these days. I especially love the fact that one of the students told his teacher to "Shut the F&*^ up!" And another girl who was busted with cigarettes wanted her principal to give her $5 for the pack! Say what?!?
My second favorite thing is a song on my running playlist..."Move Bitch" by Ludacris. I L.O.V.E. this song and it makes me run harder and laugh out loud while I am doing it. I need some more angry rap to run to...any suggestions???

Just Chillin'


Monday, February 2, 2009

The Serpent

At church yesterday, JT went up for a "moment with the children." The minister asked the kids what creature talked to Adam and Eve in the garden of eden. Guess who piped up...yep, JT, telling the minister "creatures can't talk." The minister went on to say that this one could and it was a snake. Guess who piped up again! JT let everyone know that "Me and my mom saw an anaconda." Thankfully he got cut off before he could go into detail (false) about being in the jungle. The last time we went to the zoo we saw an anaconda. I told him that if we were to see one in the jungle that it could eat us. From then on he has wanted me to tell him the story "about the time I was in the jungle and saw the anaconda." I love that kid. He really is not self aware at all. Nevermind that there were 200 people there listening to him! I hope he is always that comfortable, but with more boundaries...he busted into the neighbor's house yesterday too!

LJ and the Leg Warmers




Creative Sleeping




JT goes through sleeping bag phases. This is the first time he has done this though!